Long time no writing

It´s been a while, not doing so good and don´t know what to write really. Maybe I´ll update later tonight.

Lost it all

what have you done to me, I used to be okay with being alone. I used to like it. felt free with just being alone. Now I cannot breath without you. You took my heart when you left. I want you back. Why won´t you talk to me, listen to me, just give me a chance. I miss you so much it kills me. I was doing so good when I was with you, I had a reason to live. Now I don´t have that anymore...it´s all gone. Lost the sparkle. Lost the will to keep on going.

Starve the pain away

Look into my eyes
Can you see how much they hurt
Look into my soul
it´s a picture of a mirror
of a garden, red alert
Look into my heart
there´s a hole there that bleeds
touch my hand, it´s cold
I lost my goal, now starving is all my body needs


Tomorrow is the first day
of a day made in hell
tomorrow is the last day
that you will hear me say his name
yesterday was too late
today not soon enough
tomorrow will be perfect
perfection of a dove
I will hold the blade against my wrist
and see the blood reappear
tomorrow will be the first day
when I wont have you in here
I will starve the pain away
I will make you disappear
There will not come another day
when you will look at me and see
fat